Midlife Crisis Day 3

Midlife Crisis at 30
pg 51-52

Emily, 28 years old
Sales Associate
Boston, Massachusetts

.... Jack and I are trying to have a baby. Every time I think about us actually having a little baby, I just tear up. It's hard to put it all into words, because I have just never felt this way before. I've never wanted anything so badly.....

I sell mutual funds. I like it, and I"m good at it. Now I am on the verge of the big promotion and title change that I've wanted for a long time....

I know my mom and my sisters-in-law will judge me if I pass on the promotion or quit my job; the won't understand my choice. They are very politically correct, but I know that they don't have a lot of respect for women who work part-time or stay at home with kids....

My husband says that this is all my choice. He says he will support whatever I want to do, and of course, I really appreciate that. But here's the thing - I don't know what to do. On one hand, I want to start building a life that is more kid friendly. This promotion will mean longer hours and more travel, which is exactly what I don't want. On the other, I have been working toward this job for such a long time. More than anything, I'm just really afraid that whatever I do, a few years from now, I'm going to say to myself, "I had so many opportunities. How did I end up here?"