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My friend Mike Conn wrote an amazing note the other day - wanted to share it with you guys!

The Eyes of a Father

JD was getting ready to lay down for his nap and asked me to lay down with him. .... If I'm being honest...I stalled for a bit, thinking once he laid down I would have a window to check some e-mails and make a few phone calls, so I told him "I"ll come check on you in a few minutes."

Again he asked me to lay down with him...I couldn't say no. So I come back 5 minutes later and he was out-so I was in the clear to do my stuff I had already planned...but I couldn't leave the room...I was locked in on his beautiful little face while he was sleeping.

...I watched him sleep, I listened to him breathe...he wasn't singing to me, he wasn't playing his guitar like we do together, not playing the drums, not telling me how much he loves me or trying to make me laugh...he was resting...he was doing what a young boy his age is supposed to do at nap time :)

Then it hit me...If a selfish, anxious, judgemental, short on patience Daddy like me can sit in the symphony of my son's breathing while he is asleep and feel the pride, love, and joy I felt in that moment--how then must my God, my Abba Father feel about me and you. Even if I am not performing for Him, specifically praying to Him, or wondering how I can do more for Him or attempting to "grow His Kingdom"...how much more does He delight in my.

Delight is not a word I typically use, but that is precisely the word I thought of this afternoon, and the only word I can think of from My Father toward me...He delights in me...in spite of me and my actions. He just loves me. Let that marinate for a bit. In spite of my failures...daily failures, my best intentions and most selfish actions...He loves me just the way I am.

Father forgive me now as I am still trying to impress You. I try to word my prayers so that I get pats on the back. I want you to be impressed and wowed by all that I am doing "for You" and the excellence that I do it with...I forget...or don't purpose to guard my time with You. Please grant me and my amigo(a)s that are reading this some time with You...help us to see our time with You through the eyes of our Father.

Even though I am still a work in progress...I am His.